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End of the 2010

2010-12-31T21:57:00.000+08:00

This blog just woke up from a coma. A lot of u guys have most probably given up on looking at this after i remained stagnant for.. 11months. anyhow, thanks for yr support so far.

Im going to dedicate this blog post to my papa for everything that he's done for me. My dad has gone to a new sch after recuperating for a few months. It wasnt easy. With him facing all the pressure and keeping everything to himself. He has numerous health problems and relationship diff. He once said that he loved xx sch, but sometimes, its office politics is overwhelming. Hopefully with a new sch, he'll have a new start. A good one. I've done a lot of bad things to my dad so far. within a year, i've changed 180degrees from a pleasant daughter to a rebel (Im a milder rebel now). that must have come as a shock. I've spewed vulgarities non-stop at him, scolded him, thrown a tantrum. He didnt handle it very well either. but despite all these, i noe that inside, he still love me alot. he loves all of us alot. its just that he cant communicate very well. How'd i noe? Isnt this the 'model' reply. honestly, he's really done alot for the family. He cooks, he mops, he buys chocalates for us, he washes, he hangs clothes. He even offers to fetch us sometimes when he's eyes are TINY. I think life would have been more difficult without him. PAPA, no matter wad, be less stubborn and be happy in your new workplace. ALL THE BEST for 2011 :)

2010-01-17T22:03:00.003+08:00

Here's what i'm listening now..Hard but Easy by f(x)

(SNSD)Jessica's sister Krystal is inside. spot her :)

17 Jan: Countdown to Release of Posting Results.

Yepps. I've applied for poly. Been travelling around singapore for courses with sherilyn. Here are my choices :

1.SP- Biomed
2.NP- Biomed
3.NP- Psychology
4.NP- Mass comm

Wait.. Just so u're wondering, all repeat J1s hav to apply. N cuz of that I missed the CHOIR FILMING, prob my big break. NOO.u cant help but wish that u've got that 3s of fame rite? plus that director has filmed some internationally recognised movies. Oh no..

I know it sounds strange for me to be all bothered about poly, but now, I'm really torn apart. Sp's super attractive. It's like now, 60% of the time, i'm thinking of it. They've excellent facillities(aka subway, kfc n some travel agency?!) plus, I can learn german and hopefully join in their scholar's program (If they acceppt repeats). Most impt, I can let go of the past n really REALLY start afresh. I can almost imagine myself growing a lot there. but there's choir n maths holding me back.

MATHS..T.T. I love maths.. HOW?? :(:(

2010-01-09T21:49:00.002+08:00

I Cut Bangs Today

Haha, now half of the sops has bangs. Actually, it started yesterday. I couldn't stop my itchy fingers from cutting my hair n i ended up cutting slanted. so today, i told the hairdresser to cut bangs instead. woohoo.

Today's the open house. The turn out was ok n everything was fine, but i still feel that jc open hse can nvr compare to poly (they shout in yr ears). then oli n i walked to her hse to watch cartoon Kat-tun. Apek's in it. He look so shuai. Haha. We also played with her Flying Squirrel n i ate green tea ice cream n GERMAN chocolate. Oli's really gd at knowing wad i like n all. Haha. N i didnt even tell her. So thankful.

K, then everything happened as per se. So I'm ending here. Gute Nacht

FYI. Today's Jasmine's Birthday, so happy birthday :)

2010-01-04T00:20:00.000+08:00

Hi ppl, how've u all been?

Yep, it's been a long time since i've blogged ( intended to blog on new year but too lazy). Haha. U can't believe how glad i am now that 2009 is over. Byee... so glad i'll nvr see it EVER again.

Hmm.. now for 2010... I've got a few new additions in my life:

1. NEW COMP woohooo... built-in cam, rmike plus finger-print detection.. wow..must get a new laptop bag..

2. New fighting fish.. it's my birthday present from jz. yar, it's so cute.. but very irresponsive. always pretend to be dead =.=

Fighting fish called Blue-black for obvious reasons

3. Clog shoes.. with matching mini shoes for my soft-toys n matching keychain
( can;t show all of them since i'm using the comp cam so shall juz show one)

Yeppie Yeps. It's made in some farm in holland.

Then again, since it's the new year...so I've got some new thoughts..

Like working crazily hard.. I think i've rested too much already, so i'm starting to think weird.

Hm... I hope to

1. Do really really really well

2. work in the hols n weekends

3. Continue with my german courses.

it's so sick.. but somehow, i've got a strong urge to do all those. Inspired by rainie in whywhylove?

maybe.

but all in all..

Wishing u a Belated New Year (:

ps. I'll probably blog abt my hols in the next post ^^

2009-12-28T00:32:00.000+08:00

Bipolar? *Note: this post has depressing content*

People, I think I have issues. Maybe bipolar disorder. I dun know.. I'm like a cuckoo clock but I just can't help it. One moment I'm feeling all happy n cheery n the next i'll be emo-ing. And...I can't just stop thinking negatively abt myself. It's as if there's this evil little devil in my head telling all the bad stuff abt myself. Then, I found out today that my fren thinks like me.

R u all like that too? If so, at least we have company(:

ps: Is this my psycho-self talking?

2009-12-25T03:49:00.009+08:00

Why, my compaq widescreen comp?

Dear comp, are u suffering from dementia? Or some old-age targetting virus?

Look at you. You're keyless..

Plus, why did u bleach mysoju? I love watching dramas u know...

N why, why must i see these all the time. Even on wiki n all those educational, smarty-pants website..

Look at pitiful google...

Is it not yr fault? Maybe it's time to let go n get a new comp...

So sorry, today's yr last day. Thanks for accompanying me for 4 yrs.

*hugs you*

2009-12-25T03:33:00.002+08:00

Randomness at 2am

Hi again people. Yah i know, I just blogged like 5hrs ago. Just. Recently. I know I'm supposed to be sleeping like NOW. But i can't. It's only 7.38pm to be exact in Amsterdam. Dinner time. ER.. ya that's why I'm having supper now. So sry. Confusing rite. I understand how u feel rite now. ok... so.. ya, on the side note

~~HOHOHO,MERRY X'mas :)~~
yeah, merry, hoho. Hope u're having a great time today.

thanks to rs, i'm gonna share a vid for the first time. It's a vlog i'm following:)

Allergic to Chocolate

we so click rite?

2009-12-24T22:23:00.003+08:00

I'm Back frm Amsterdam

But i'm still feeling pretty lazzy. so yeah.

I shall just blog abt my holiday later. Vlog/Blog- hopping now. HEHE

ps: um... i feel weird cuz i lost TIME somewhere between 9pm tues and 3pm weds? ER.. tues..weds....... Ahhh, confusing.

BUT HOHO, i'm gonna name my experience......the jetlag

1 hr 10 min before take off

2009-12-15T00:09:00.000+08:00

LOL. hello everyone, i'm here to blog just before we leave for the plane flight at 1am. Haha, using the free comp at the airport. My first stop will be at amsterdam. SSSOOOO COOLL. yah, can't help it. first time to europe :)) will be gaining extra time in the plane cuz it's GMT + 8 here in singapore n GMT +1 in amsterdam. Everything's so surreal now.. i feel like i'm dreaming o.o . K, see u soon guys since i dun think i'll be using the comp over there.

12 dec 09

2009-12-12T18:57:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday XIAOPING

Haha, dec is really a month of celebrations. So glad that our b'days are so close together:)

So fast. tmr, my whole family's gonna depart for europe. Haven packed my bag yet. Gonna do so later. But i'll miss everyone back home n my 9-hr choir practices :0 Juz hope that i won't spent all my money on toileet trips. (can u believe it costs abt S$2 just to relief yrself)Yep, I'd rather splurge my money on sweets n souvenirs.

Dear frens, I noe u're waiting for them rite :P haha

WiLL BE BACK ON 24th Dec

To end off... click this link . It's called Heaven by DJ Sammy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2CLCUoUUBuk&feature=PlayList&p=2D39C4EC551E5EB3&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=15

2009-12-10T21:54:00.000+08:00

TODAY is HUIQING's B'DAY.
If i'm so high today, it's all hq's fault.
Congrats..17 le. so excited. lala~

K. back from lala land. Still so happy. So many things coming up;D

Tmr: Going with jz to temple to pray for my safety. thanks alot, good fren.
Meet up with choir frens to prepare for our special item (Tabidachi No Hini)in the band concert at nite. Hope Oli n me get well soon.

Sat/Sun: Planning to take xiaoping out to celebrate her b'day. but not confirmed.

Mon: Flying to Europe at nite. Yay.

But first,my mom's forcing us to recover from our sore throats so that we can take the Hini Vaccine.

2009-12-06T02:00:00.002+08:00

Hi again:D

Sry that I've not blogged like I promised. It's just that some things happened n I camped at ct's hse n ya, I still feel like crap. There's just too much negative energy at home. My sis cried miserably on her b'day yesterday, my bro was throwing a tantrum, no one's in the mood for anything.

Still, for these past 5 days, thank u chiou torn, jov, jia zhen, cherry, darren,jem n aunty for supporting me thru. U really went beyond wat's called for. HAHA, I expected much less. So...ya, I feel so LOVED

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Once upon a time I wouldn't hav believed in retail therapy. But ppl, just so u noe, i STILL dun believe in squeezing off yr fren's $$. So one way or another, i'm gonna pay u'all back. I'm not yr 'wad' k?! Lol. nvm.
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Now, the pauper shall pick herself up n continue from where she's left off.

Fyi, her hair's short again :D

Cows? Boo.

2009-11-25T21:25:00.003+08:00

Sorry cows, I'm sick of u T.T
Now I'm onto GOAT'S milk.
Mehhh~

ps. I know it's ridiculous to see someone update her blog everyday but pls understand: It's a novelty thing. Hopefully by dec, u'll rarely see new posts. Not anytime soon dude.

PowDerfuLL

2009-11-25T02:35:00.000+08:00

Wow. This milk is so powderful, the pauper feels she's opening her mouth to the construction site. but still she loves it. Haix..but anyway, although she is penniless, she managed to tag along her slightly wealthier parents to the FoodFair!! I dun noe if it's me, but somehow, it's like the foodfair degraded over the years. :( REally, i ate shark's fin that's gooey n oh soo sour...quite a let-down. hmm...here goes the pauper's chance of feeling royal. Even the shark fin hates me.

N not only that. I think the baddest thing abt going to a foodfair on the last day is that there'll always be a bunch of aunties pushing their way to the nearest deal. Ok, i'm trying to be tolerant, but OMG, stop trying to take advantage of me. SERIOUSLY. If 2 chawamushis cost $1.50, can't u just buy two n eat it yrself. Why must i pay $1 (original price) while u hav it at 50cents. So Unfair! So HAHA, I rejected yr offer to SHARE. :DD

Tis Day Shall Be

2009-11-25T01:11:00.000+08:00

NOW, marks the time when my blog comes alive. I've started blogs before (much to idk who's surprise) but hmm... this pauper is technologically-unsavvy. Still, with her tumultous soul n an overactive imagination, emotions spill out to this webpage. The little pauper shall now embark on a new journey, one that will change her into a better person....